Someone's
put on a bit of weight!
They
always say this with a smile so patronising you wanna knock their
teeth out their head
And a
tone that's as sarcastic as Satan when he says, is it too hot in
here?
I
know they're just teasing
And
they're well within their reasoning cos I'm not exactly that fat so
how can I possibly have body image issues
They
don't know
And
they don't know the journey I've been through - but you
You
do
You
were there and you saw me struggle through school with all the
bullies that replaced my name with insults for so long that - I
forgot who I was
I
knew myself only as a punchline look I was a lot bigger then
I
remember I thought I could reason with the bullies but it always came
out so fucking pathetic like 'Guys! Stop! You're hurting my
feelings!'
I
remember one of them said 'FAT PEOPLE DON'T HAVE FEELINGS!' and do
you know what, technically, hunger is a feeling
But
I've felt plenty more besides that
I've
felt the word fat quickly go from observation to damnation and so my
only hope for salvation was to swallow their abuse
To
eat up their insults until it made me sick
Three
times a day
After
every single meal don't ask how I feel I know it's how I look that
matters
I
lost twenty percent of the person that I used to be
And
people would hold my hips like the handles to some trophy they'd just
won and say 'WOW!'
'You
look great!'
'Tell
me what you ate for dinner cos I just like totally hate my figure and
it looks like you're getting thinner so maybe you're onto a winner
and.....'
Yeah.....I
got slimmer but I never got better
I
never got healthier
See I
was never once sat in the doctor's waiting room because of my weight
I was
there because there's an evil man in my bedroom
He
lives behind the glass and he points at everything wrong
He
says my eyebrows look like they wanna hold hands
And
the only thing that will ever stand out about me, is my gut
He's
says 'Nice bracelets'
'When
are you gonna get the necktie to match?'
When
I finally lost all the weight he was the first one to point out the
stretch marks
On
the backs of my legs were disgusting
He
said my spine bones made me look like a monster
Spikes
were just trying to
Pierce
through the skin so don't tell me that beauty magazines only affect
women
Cos
every single airbrushed starlet with flawless skin and unimaginable
proportions she's eventually swept up off her feet
By a
superman
With
a - six pack, pecs and bulging arms and that's why in every gym you
will find young men
Screaming
Look
I won't tell you this for a reaction
I
just need you to understand that for me and so many others this
battle has got nothing to do with being thin
It's
about learning to appreciate the skin, that we are in and it's a goal
I'm so afraid I will be chasing for ever so believe me when I tell
you
I'm
not getting fatter
I'm
getting better
This performance place at Evidently at the Eagle Inn, Salford
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b18LNxmFFZ8
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